When I can do music I can't do lyrics...

So this is lyrics in progress.....haha...Yes, I have nothing better to do...



I'm trying to find out,
What my life is all about,
Yet everywhere I turn,
I only crash and burn.

So now I'm standing still,
Though much against my will,
Fear has kept me from moving,
Despite while here I'm dying.

I really want to fly,
To feel the wind and cry,
For once my body feels,
And know that this is real.

I'm still at where I stand,
I just can't understand,
Why don't I feel alive,
Why do I feel deprived.

I know it's in my mind,
Look harder, I will find,
The solace that I seek,
And not all is so bleak.

I really want to fly,
To feel the wind and cry,
For once my body feels,
And know that this is real.

One day I will know that I have lived despite I'm dead,
Until that day I'll keep on breathing,
And when the time has come for me to face that which I dread,
I wish with me is just but one thing,
you....

History unrepeated..

For the past 2 years history repeated itself....

In June I would have the time of my life, by July I would feel like shit...

Coming to this June I was worried it might happen again, so I somewhat made conscientious efforts to avoid that from recurring. I did as much as I could to not find something overjoyed for (World Cup wasn't really all happy for me..England got kicked out by the undeserving Portugal, remember?)

I still won myself a Wrestling tournament at the end of June (which I have done for the past 2 years, if anyone noticed..) but I didn't win this time because i was lucky (which is one hell of a source of joy) but because I.........Cheated...

Ok, so 3 years after I became the all-righteous Magic:the Gathering judge I am now a player who'll cheat to win..Blame the late Eddie Guererro on that please. Like he said, "if you didn't lie, you didn't try.." Ok, so that sentence can be intrepreted in many other context. I didn't like do a Mike Long (edited accordingly) and kept some cards under my thigh. Nor did I have more prematches than I should, carefully interchanging them as required...I simply chose not to highlight the obvious, which many who have played Magic with me would agree. i like to state the obvious, when other forget about them..

I still do that in real life, you know, telling others obvious things when their common sense eludes them. Not many people can accept it, but I do my part in making life simple and straight forward..I don't do it with my words, but my actions are relatively straightforward...Choose to read between the lines (of my actions, not my words.. My words almost always have double, if not more, meanings) and you'll miss my true intention...

Back to not having history repeat itself, so the lack of sources of elation has resulted in no need to be in anguish due to the lack of it in July..And come August, please, please not have another shitty Thursday...Let it pass without event nor encounter, which is fine by me, but have easy on me...Don't give me more headaches and heartaches... (wait a minute...Not's like the 'person' who decides this would read me here, would 'it'? haha)

So life goes on...And hopefully I'd scraped through the rest of the months in relative safety.....

I can't help it! ( Conspiracy Theory ahead!!)

With all this talk about why Zidane decided to head butt his way to a red card and a World Cup Finals' Final send-off....I just feel compelled to tell my side of the story (haha, like I was there to have a side of the story..)

Why Zidane Head Butted Marco Materazzi:

At half time Zidane was in the dressing room when he called his publicist.

Zidane: Hey, I don't think I can win this for France. But since the whole world knows I'm retiring from foootball, I won't have a chance to make my mark in football history if I don't do something great now..
Publicist: Look, you can always come out of come out of retirement. Euro 2008 is just 2 years away...
Zidane: I can't..I don't think I'm up to this level of football anymore...
Publicist: Look, it's level now, you 've got another 45 minutes to be the man...
Zidane: And what if I fail? It's not like my teammates will step up to the plate...
Publicist: Hey, you're a smart man..Use your head. You'll think of something to be etched in World Cup History...

And so Zidane ponders how is he going to make that happen...After the match ended 1-1 in 90 minutes, with Viera out, Zidane is even more concerned he's losing out on making WC history..." Must find a way...Must use my head...."

1st half of extra-time sees Trezeguet subbed in and Henry subbed out (not for each other). Zidane is extremely anxious now as he doesn't have henry to pass to and everyone knows Trezeguet had score for nuts in World Cups...Zidane realises he must, more now than ever, take the game in his own hands and make a mark for himself..

An opportunity arises and he gets a free-header with a thundering shot on goal. But Buffon was up to it! "Your head is not good enough!" Shouts Buffon as he recovers from palming away Zidane's bullet header. Zidane is running out of ideas.." My publicist says to use my head..And I did..But it isn't working!!" Zidane thinks to himself..." What else can I sue my head for?? (we all know the end result, but stay for a moment, ok..)

Then came the EPIPHANY....Marco Materazzi decides to 'molest' Zidane and as Zidane looks back at him, Zidane thinks " hey, that chest looks tough..Wonder if I could..." ( Of course, what Zidane says isn't what he thinks.. MM decides to insult Zidane further and finallt Zidane gets it " I'm suppose to use my head..Yeah, that what I'll do!!" Zidane turns around, headbutts MM in the chest and MM goes falling like a Flair Flop...Must have had some Sports Entertainment training...

And after that is history..Zidane makes a mark for himself in WC history..People talk about him as much as they talk about WC winners Italy...And as far as his publicist is concerned, all in the name of free publicity and Zidane did use his head, as advised!!

If I haven't indicated my hatred enough...

Out on her royal yacht the Queen was enjoying the sea air when she spied a man in the water off the port bow - clearly being menaced by a very large shark. Through her binoculars she could see it was Cristiano Ronaldo, struggling frantically to free himself from the jaws of a 20 foot shark! The Queen ordered the captain to change course to try and save the poor man, but she knew the yachts top speed would never get them there in time.

At that exact moment a speedboat containing three men wearing white England shirts sped into view. One of the men took aim at the shark and fired a harpoon into its ribs, immobilising it instantly. The other two reached out and pulled Ronaldo from the water and, using long clubs, beat the shark to death. They bundled the bleeding, semi-conscious Ronaldo into the speedboat along with the dead shark and prepared for a hasty retreat, when they heard frantic calling ....... It was the Queen calling them to the yacht. On reaching the yacht the Queen went into raptures about the rescue and said, "I'll give you a knighthood for your brave actions. I thought the England team would hate Ronaldo after the World Cup. But I see that the England team are true heroes and should serve as a model for sportsmanship to other countries." She knighted them and sailed away.

As she departed Rooney asked the others, "Who was that?!" "That," Beckham answered, "was our Queen. She rules the Commonwealth and knows everything about our country." "Well," Rooney replied, "she knows F all about shark fishing.. How's the bait holding up Frank?"


Yes, I hate that prick!

Semifinals - WC 2006

Actually, no..I'm not going to discuss my incorrect predictions....I'm not going to discuss what's on show for the semifinals......

I just want everyone who feels the same way to join me in visualising ( I don't pray, so that option isn't available) Cristiano Ronaldo's face when he breaks both his legs during the semifinals match VS France...

That prick! Say whatever you like, any player that goes to the referee after the whistle blows due to a foul is trying to instigate the ref into booking a player....I don't know what he said to the ref, and in what language, but it was surely a language he wanted Rooney to understand..he probably wasn't expecting a shove from Rooney, but the end result is he had a hand in getting Rooney sent off..

Ok, for those who didn't see the match, this is what happened (IMHO):

1) Rooney fouls some Portugese player near the centreline...
2) Referee spots it and blows the whistle. He then proceeds to the spot where the fouls was committed.
3) The prick then walks up to the ref and says god knows what to the ref, with Rooney inches away..
4) Whatever the prick said made Rooney unhappy and he got a shove by Rooney. Ref, being just in front of them, immediately signals Rooney to him...
5) by some stroke of magic, the ref pulls out a RED CARD and sents Rooney off....The prick looks pleased...

There are reports now that the prick winked at the bench when Rooney got his red card. The ref, in his post match discussions with Sven (the dumb England Coach who should have been sacked and not allowed to leave peacefully) insist that it was the initial foul that warranted a red card....But everyone knows it was the shove that make him decide he's seen enough of Rooney for the day...

Ok, so Rooney's at fault too. He shouldn't react so physically. When will footballers learn to just let the ref do whatever he wants and focus on the game instead?? Don't they ever learn that protest never got them anything but bookings??? So Rooney's fault is 15%...

The ref. One wonders how a shove is equal to a red card....Or even when followed by the foul before...it's not like the prick was injured in the process....he was still in excellent condition after the shove.... Obviously the ref felt he needed to show Rooney who's the boss, and thus a red card was shown instead of the correct yellow...Ref is thus 10% at fault..

So we have it. 15% Rooney, 10% Ref, and the Prick is 75% responsible to getting Rooney sent off and Portugal's eventual penalty victory (yes, Ricardo did excellently during the shoot-out, but if England had 11 men, there wouldn't have been a penalty shootout..).

Somebody break that pricks legs...He should sit out next season's EPL watching Rooney play every MU match...

One wonders if the Portugese have an effect on Refs by getting them to flash cards...

As for the Semis, I hope France kick Portugese butt...Ok, not all Portugese butts, just that prick's...As long as he gets a permanent disability, I don't mind Portugal winning...

Really.....