Saturday, April 30, 2005

Get out of Jail!!!

Card. That's what today is for me. The past month has been depressing as a whole, due to my knowlegde of what's to happen to my job scope. As I have posted before, I am returning to my previous role as an Administrator (or Secretary, for those who are wondering) from my current role as Team Leader. And today is my last day.

So why get out of jail? Hmmm. Lots of reasons. I no longer have to lead a team. That said, I no longer have to worry over my teammembers not doing their work, slacking, taking shortcuts, etc. I don't have to worry about their welfare, their stress levels, their happiness at work......All I have to worry is making sure my Boss get's what she wants when she wants it (no unethical thoughts, please..)

Oops (Out of Pattern Spend). I let out the cat. Let's talk about my job. Yes, I am known as the Department Administrator for about 80 employees. However, I report to one person, that's my Boss, who also happens to be the Director. And yes, it's a she. And yes, I agree what they say about female bosses. Oh, as I was saying, while I seem to serve 80 odd blokes, my major concern is the requirements of my Director. Again, this is business only (see why I don't like talking about this?) As long as the task given out by her is completed, I am free to do as I will (within certain constraints, of course).

Not that being a Team Leader meant I would have another boss. Nope. Same boss, more problems. The difference, is of course; Power & Money ( I could add the ability to serve others, but I'm no politician, so I'll lie). So I don't really have much to complain, do I?

But complain I do. You see, being male restricts my ability to multitask. And this role requires alot of multitasking. Not to mention, I have poor attention span. Sometimes constantly reminded items pass me by until its too late. In other words, I suck at my job. So how did this hopeless (me) get hired?

This is some fun to tell. I've told this before, but let's do this here as well. For your reading pleasure. You see, before this I worked night shift in the same department as a rep. My performance was above par, but not thoroughly outstanding. When the position became available, I was somewhat tired of my current job. There were certain changes happening, and I wasn't too keen on them. Besides, this is a day job. Weekends off. (not too mention, not bad in pay). And the role of 'Department Administrator' made it possible for a guy to go for the post. Oh, fyi, until I applied, everyone, and anyone, who even considered for this position, was female. (I see an opening for guy degrading comment!). So I posted. My competitors, all colleagues in the same department, were of course females with a certain skill lacking. Not without, but lacking (and this skill has nothing with me being male, dammit!)

I had the advantage of being more fluent in English. Like this. They, however, were, as I mentioned, lacking. ( I also believe that my boss probably was happy to be able to boast to have a male assistant, as every other person in similar roles were females, but that's another story). Not to mentioned I played all my cards right through 2 interviews with 4 women! I must admit though, I wasn't even convinced I should get the job......

That was 18 months ago. Now I'm going to be back at that role, and have to work with the person who replaces me. I just hope I can remain objective and not give them a hard time.

I need a new job....Anyone know of anything out there for me????

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Back on Borrowed Time

To some extent, that is. Doing this during working hours looks like borrowed time to me.

A little update over the last post:

1) I showed I knew Edge and Christian very well, and that I was.....That......Damn.....Good (yet another Wrestling related comment). However, UnderTaker answered GOLDBerg's Who's Next extremely well and Took Care of Business. Whooped me and took the Intercontinetal Belt.

2) I haven't had a single game of chess since my last post.....Boo Hoo. Isn't there anyone willing to spar with me???

Yesterday the official announcement of my impending return to my previous role came out. The permanent replacement's name was also announce. During that time (in the 'manager's' meeting), despite me already knowing this fact, my mood sunk yet again and I could hardly function properly. Safe to say I didn't exist in the office for a couple of hours despite physically there. I was just not in the mood to work. More reference to borrowed time??

Today there was a Cultural Day of sorts in my department and I had colleagues appearing in standard malay, chinese or indian costumes. Best, ofcourse were the non-indians willingness to put on a Saree. While some may say my office does not have beautiful women, I would say it is a welcomed change, at least once in a while.

Despite my attempts to not do much for the next couple of weeks, I couldn't stop myself from overtaking my colleague's camera and started acting like pro (when I'm not). Come to think of it, I think I was somewhat rude with the way I shove him off His camera and took over. Ouch. Me bad, very bad. That aside, we had the a pot luck thingy and there was so much food that I don't even need to buy dinner (the event happened late lunch). There's still alot of food left.

Back to taking photographs, I have a thing for angled shots and candid pictures. I like taking pictures when people least expect them (not too the extent that it becomes voyuer) and take them at embarassing moments. There was once a colleague fell asleep in the office (please don't think we have nothing to do at work, we do. Really) and I borrowed (again??) a phone camera and recorded a scene of him sleeping!

Other than the photographing sessions, loads of food, today has been quite a waste of time. I hardly have any mood to do anything (my boss finds out, I'm dead). Can't wait to go to Wolf's Gameshop tonight and play some wrestling. Glad I got some extra foils from Herman (a Singaporean who drops by the Shop once a month to sell Raw Deal Foils) that allows me a lot more options in deckbuilding (like I don't already have enough). Took me 3 hours last night just to rearrange my foils.

It's now 7.45pm. 2 plus hours to go. Can't wait.

Sunday, April 17, 2005

Happier Times

I admit. For the first time I am writing this from home. So much for using company time for personal endeavours.

Few things have urged me to write these down before my failing memory looses the thoughts,

1) I have been listening to this 'schoolboy' song recently and it brought back memories of how I destroyed the lyrics. I will write the lyrics below and you decide how sick I was. Urm, I did this at twelve.

Song - Parody of Bahasa Jiwa Bangsa (oops. It's in Bahasa Malaysia, so if you don't know BM, you're unlikely to understand what I've done).

Jangan guna Bahasa Kebangsaan kita
Gunakan kata kasar sahaja
Bahasalah memusnahkan kita semua
Yakinlah Bahasa sakit jiwa

Marilah mari rakyat semua
Buktikan taat setia
pada kata kasar sahja

Tak maju bangsa
Tak maju negara
Bahasa sudah gila
Bahasa sakit Jiwa!!

2) After like, 4 years, I finally found someone (you know who you are) to play a game of chess with me. This guy was somewhat confident of his 'chess' skills that he responded to my offer to play "Only if you don't mind losing"....He he. Unfortunately for him, due to lack of sparring partners, I had no avenue to show that I am somewhat competent in Chess, or similar board games. You see, my youth was spent on character creation (RPG characters; AD&D, GURPs, RuneQuest, Middle Earth, Chill, StreetFighter, Ars Magicka, Vampire the Masquerade, Robotech, Star Trek and a host of other RPgs too) without the RPG sessions (no pals of similar wavelength, unfortunately), playing basketball at school (which I suck at) or, playing 'chess' like games. While I'm not good enough to represent my school, I can play well. Most people who knew me then say that my lack of concentration is my downfall. To cut the story short, he underestimated my playing level and was rather easily checkmated. Then another guy took me on and lost 2 games in a row. And finally, with a vengence, the first guy took me on again...............and lost. All 4 games I played black. I wonder if I still know how to play white. Not too much to worry though, I don't think they do either...(inner chuckle). Though I hope I didn't beat them too badly, because then no one would want to play with me again (and another many years of no chess to play)...


3) I have just cracked my head for 4 hours figuring out what to pack for my 2 PPV matches; GOLDBerg VS Undertaker; and Two Man Power Trip VS Edge & Christian. While the earlier sees me defending the Raw Intercontinental Belt, the latter has me as the Number 1 contender for their Raw Tag Team Belt. The stress was further compounded by me forgetting to bring home my Hardcore Molly deck, which held key cards for both my decks (For those in the know, i.e. Volley This!). Thus I am forced to build decks with the possibility of not being able to access certain cards, and much more difficult is the fact that both decks are RAW and share certain Premium cards (like all my GRAs!). Headache!!!!!

4) (will I have 7 points to write.....Hmmm????)

No!. And I'm tired. Will signoff here. Pray I Take Care of Undertaker Business and show how I know Edge & Christian.

(neck hurts!)

Monday, April 11, 2005

DDDDDDD Pressed

Ran my first CCG tournament yesterday. Not with Magic the Gathering, but Raw Deal (if you've been reading this, it should be obvious). Surprised to get 14 players when I thought getting 12 was impossible. Guess the prizes were good attraction. Oh, and getting 14 players were a problem as the tournament support was only good for 12. Had an opportunity to fix it, but couldn't. Tough luck.

I actually completed the tournament early (like by 6pm) for a 5 round tornament that cuts to top four. Guess 30 minute rounds are significantly faster than 50 minute rounds (what, you can calculate anymore meh? It's obvious, right?) In general, it was quite good a tourney.

However, I failed on 2 counts:

1) I failed to deliver as promised to provide everyone with a That's Balance promo card. It was meant that everyone joining the tournament would get one but the kit/support catered only for 12. So much for trying to push for more attendance. Damn.

2) I failed to rule properly when required. Made an ass of myself when I helped a Rock player by ruling against his opponent, resulting the match to draw. Later, when the opponent (who played the Phenom, an Undertaker remake (Which I hate! I don't know why)) recalled the ruling to other players, my mistake blew up on my face. Ouch! Better buck up to avoid further embaressment. If only Raw Deal had comprehensive rules like MTG. Or is it because I didn't read up enough? Must improve. Must.

Oh, it didn't help how I was reminded of my mistakes. it felt like I was an amateur. There was this group of players ranting away their dissatisfaction after the tournament was over (they were the winner and finalist, who unfortunately were the victims of the 14 player attendance (that I couldn't fix)) and how I failed to act in good faith over certain the prize support. They were also unhappy over certain decisions made about the next tournament I plan to organise. All I could do was sit and listen. Luckily they got tired and we all went for dinner! (he he, food is always good misdirection).

But just a couple of hours ago I saw a post on a forum referencing to the tournament (by the winner) and again the failures were highlighted. I felt crucified. Staked. Couple that with the shit I am getting in the Office (which, ahem isn't entirely not my fault), I took 4 hours and hit back. Now I need to prepare for the worst. Defy!!!!!

So here I am again, depressed and confused to why I constantly put myself in this position. Let's review:

1) I like to organise tournaments. I enjoy most when everyone get to have loads of fun while I sit back and watch. I do this at video arcades too, which explains why I could spend hours there without spending a sigle cent. Now there's PC games, so I don't need to do that anymore.

2) I hated the fact that dem damn Singaporeans (Malaysians, if you forward this Blog to Singaporeans, I'll Suicide Head Butt you!!!) had access to so many Raw Deal cards, a majority of them promos, while us Malaysians watched in awe. (Also should comment that I didn't like them having a better collection than I did, but that's another story). So running tournaments was a way for me to help fix this.

3) I can't take stress. I have taken stress test before and failed miserably. Wait a minute, this isn't a valid point? There's more stress running tournaments than playing them!

4) I hope to make a living from this. Then I can screw work and run tournaments full time. Yippee!! (erm. Excuse me? Raw Deal don't give you money for the work. Eventually I'm suppose to get the promos, but that's only if I survive this for more than 3 months. Oh, no money. Remember that. I need to pay for the support, remember (hint, USD 25 for the TKits?))

5) I like to be the centre of attention. Everyone needs to listen to me when I announce rounds, make rulings, bla bla bla..Yeah, That's right. I am the King of the World!! (I didn't just write that, did I? Stupid JellyKoh). What King of the world? This isn't Magic, where they have Judge levels to show my ability to make rulings. And my blunder was low. Real low. (Where's that rat hole?)

6) I get to be part of the shop. Well, for like 5 hours, anyway...Hmmm.. I smell a need to fit in....(Must defy, must defy). (What part of the shop am I apart of? Stop hallucinating, ok?)

7) I must be bored silly. hmmm....Best possible reason of the 7.

Discounting the non reasons, I guess I now know why I am doing it. How long can I do it, I don't know. If players continue to be ungrateful (luckily 'they' aren't, yet), I may just throw down the towel.

Life sucks..........And life goes on.......................................................................................................................

Friday, April 08, 2005

What happened after WrestleMania XXI

It was a good show. Fine entertainment for 4 hours. Granted some of the matches were a bore, i.e. Cena VS JBL, Big Show and some Sumo wrestler, etc... But the matches between Kurt Angle and Shawn Michaels, 6 Man Money in the Bag Ladder Match and, ofcourse, HHH and the current World Heavyweight Title Champ, BATISTA were great matches. That was a superb show from the start (ring entrances) 'till finish (Batista Bomb on HHH). I have to admit, I was routing for Batista all the time.

You see, fyi to those who aren't into Wrestling, Batista (new upstart wrestler) was HHH (veteran wrestler) understudy in a team known as Evolution, of which 1 member has already left (Randy Orton, also young upstart wrestler). During the buildup to WrestleMania XXI, Batista challenged HHH for the World Heavyweight Title (If you don't know, sports in rings love heavyweight stuff, so lightweight stuff just don't bring on the power) @ WrestleMania XXI. While the challenge was Paid (signed-off), Laid (on contract) & Made (Fixed Venue & Date), it was still a number of weeks before the final confrontation. So wrestling enthusiast had the opportunity to see how Batista condition himself for the match (no, not by showing his gym routines, but his in-ring speeches and other matches) and also see how HHH was reeling off the prospect of being beaten (RAW) by BATISTA.

And BATISTA won. And kept the title the next day as well (Oh, title matches ususally have a rematch clause and it is usually used the next day). But enough talk about WrestleMania XXI. Let's talk about the other things that happened.

One of my long time fueds is my GOLDBerg (talking about the Raw Deal Wrestling game here) and Andy's (another RAW DEAL player) Jellykoh (Actually known as Chris Jericho, but I have given him the nickname out of sheer disgust). There has been many encounters between us, and most often our meetings have been dissapointing for me. However, while he beats me regularly in tournaments, JellyKoh hasn't really won any tournaments, unlike GOLDBerg. So, after weeks of trash talking and dissing, it was decided we would go one on one to settle this fued (Yeah right...We were just looking for another excuse to fight!). (WARNING!!! Significant references to RAW DEAL game up ahead.)

Our duels with each other is of such multitude that we are constantly looking to outwit each other during prematch. My latest counter for Hell in a Cell Match was Vince McMahon, GRA. However, in the last tournament he outwitted me with Will You Please Shut Up, causing me to start with a hand of 2 cards (sue to GGGGOOOOLLLLDDDD.......Berg). My inability to recover my hand resulted in GOLDBerg hit with Victory Roll without any fortitude.

That was to change. While I knew I had to counter Hell in a Cell Match (HiaCM), I also know that starting with 2 cards is not gonna cut it for me. So I went for a different angle and chose to go with 2 belts, drop a WrestleMania (during WrestleMania!!) and outlast his prematches so that my Vince GRA can come in and blank HiaCM instead of Indian Strap Match (FYI, he would play Indian Strap Match first, bait out my Vince GRA and then drop Summer Slam and HiaCM later to avoid the blanking effect). All went as plan and I dropped:

Little Rock, Arkansas (yes, I went Volley),
no fued.. Backstage Politics
no stip Indian Strap Match
Managed by Steph none
World HeavyWeight Title Belt Will You Please Shut Up
I've Had More Championships than You've had Women Not Today CupCake

At this point, I was completely destroyed in terms of Prematch as I no longer have slots to play when he blanked I've Had More Championships than You've had Women. His last prematch was I Don't Care About Heat.

However, I got to start with 8 cards in hand and by playing volley (which is so good agianst heat decks), GOLDBerg Cold-Cocked JellyKoh!!!! (FYI, Cold-Cocked is a Raw Deal card, not some term used to describe victory).

Then I proceeded to play in a triple threat match as Brock Lesnar against John Cena and Eugene. Both of them seemed to have comboed against my deck with HiaCM and Cena's Yo! Kill the Beat!. Since then, I decided Lesnar would be a spectator rather than a wrestler for that match and allowned Eugene to pin Cena. (Cena, you lying SOB, you deserve losing to a retard!!!!)

Away from Raw Deal references, the gang also brought along PS2 and we had several games of soccer. Since I didn't know how to play, I was trashed....But it was fun.

Then I realised I have been awake for more than 36 hours, so decided to leave an made a move to be in the best place when you're tired. Bed. My own Bed.

Enough about that Monday.......May I find more things to write sooner.......

Saturday, April 02, 2005

Time passing by

Lately I haven't been motivated....Other than playing Raw Deal, ofcourse. The reason is simply that I am loosing my current resonsibilities soon yet still I have to perform my daily functions. No Motivation at all. Zilch.

Been trying to think of what to post here, even thought about debating why women love money more than men......Then decided i don't want to put my head up for the Guillotine. Maybe next time, when I am in better mood and have more time to think about the topic, I would.

Coming Monday I will be watching WrestleMania XXI at another Raw Deal players house (that Fiezan, for those who know). It's the first time I am watching this kind of live Wrestling. To think that 24 months ago, I would criticised the WWE shows for being fake/made up. Now, the main attraction is the Made -Up parts, the soap-opera styled stories, the fueds, the 'Backstage Politics'........Sure, the wrestling can be entertaining sometimes, especially if you see them really wrestling their hearts out and no fake flops, expressions and what nots. However, most of the time the wrestling is as fake as the actions around it. Which is why the 'off' Ring events are more entertaining than the 'on' Ring ones. You know its fake. Like Movies. Good fake.

In the ring, you expect real fighting. Real Pain. Real Moves. Then you see a chop in the chest and the whole crowd goes "woooo", and you see the receipient shrieking in pain......Yeah right...

Not forgetting to mention are some Fueds back for my Raw Deal pals and I. Me, I have 2 match-ups for 2 different Superstars (Apologies, this portion may not mean much to non- Raw Deal players). All this will happen while we watch WrestleMania XXI. Will write more about it after Monday morning....If I can remember the events.

As mentioned in the post earlier, I have been having poor memory these days. Coupled with lack of motivation to excel, life has been," Wake Up.........Have lunch.......Have dinner.....Sleep" and most of the other events that happen during the day, fade away. Hopefully this will not last too long. Need to get over it...Need to....Really....(Talking to myself here)

Going on without topic.....Must stop or dangerous information may get posted without knowledge....now...