Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Never Underestimate the Kindness of Humanity....Final Part of HK Trip

This isn't much of a epilogue or anything, but just a few things I'd like to write before I completely forget the HK trip and wondered what I did the first week of December in 2008.

The most important thing is that I'm really thankful and grateful of my host in HK. He has been so accomodating and helpful in making the whole HK trip possible. As I've mentioned earlier, I don't actually know him all that much. But the trip has given me a chance to know him a little more and really, even now, I still don't quite get what made me deserve such a good host. Now if only my future trips abroad I'd have such great host as well, I'd travel a whole lot more..

At the same time, it makes me think that when it's my turn to play host, I'd have his standards to meet or exceed, which is quite alot. It's not really so much of the free lodging and meals (he did buy me a meal here and there), but more to the whole 'hosting' ettiquette which is most impressive. I don't really know how else to say it, but a whole lot of thanks.

Secondly, I'd say that if given a choice (and no skin allergies to boot), I wouldn't mind living/working in HK. But I wouldn't want to raise a family there, as it's just too fast I think. Yet to think they've got so many people living in such a small place. I saw so many teenagers out at night at Mong Kok, I wonder if the parents could have some control to where the kids go. With everyone using the trains/subways et all, travel is too convenient, I believe. Respect to those who dared to be parents in HK (for those who actually made a thoughtful decision...)

Thirdly, be prepared to walk a whole freaking lot when travelling abroad. I didn't, hence the knees. Also, bring allergy medication just in case.

Lastly, Nothing beats being able to drive. To think I dodge that for 29 years...Such silly silly boy...

Ok, enough blogging for now....Hope this will be a good read in times to come.....

Sin is IN...Part 6 of HK trip

Ok,

let me check where I am again..I've told about the days in training, the day without training and the day going to the buddha and back.

Instead of going straight home after a tiring climb up the Buddha's hill and then a ride to the edge of Hong Kong to an unfamiliar fishing village, it was around 6pm-ish and my host suggested we go to Mong Kok. Initially i wanted to go to Mong Kok because I was there with my guy colleagues on Thursday and found a Camel shoe that cost less than RM 200. However, because I got myself a jacket that day, I decided against further spending in an effort to avoid going on a spree.

So we took the train back to Kowloon area and boy, was it a packed train. Now, in the past few days I've been in Hong Kong, all the while the trains have been well occupied but not crowded. This time, however it was. To the brim. I guess that's what happens when you take the train from one end of the line to almost the other end of the line.

About 45 minutes later we arrived at Mong Kok. Other than hunting for my shoes, my host wanted me to try out the street food which is kind of famous in HK. While the shoes were hard to find, the food was not. The sky was already dark, but the streets were brighter than ever. Hong Kong sure knows how to use electricity.

That's Chow Tau Fu..

Now I know street food is not healthy. I also hear people say 'chou tau fu' is not healthy either. But if you're going to be in HK once every 10 or so years, without really knowing if you'll ever return in your lifetime, too bad for health. I went for the broke. I had 2 pieces of 'chow tau fu', grilled squid, fish balls and even some gizzards. Yum. Sinful, but who cares? (Ok, you weren't expecting any OTHER kind of sin, were you? ME? That? how can??) But that wasn't the only sin I committed that night. Oh, just like to comment that there were probably as many kids/teenagers as there were adults on the streets that night...Scary...

My host was constantly on a look out for new games for his PS3. In addition, he is a collector of miniature robots, like Gundam and such. HK is like a haven for people with that interest as they seem to be selling them everywhere. So while I was limping my way through Mong Kok (by now my knees were killing me softly. It's nice that for the first time it's my knees giving me aches and not my feet. I DID WALK ALOT, you know...) we went around the area looking for toys and games. To think we're both over 30. Anyone believing in the New Testament stating 30 makes a man, man should rethink as we're both hardly men. (Ok, he's probably more since he's got a wife and kids to boot. No offence to the wife and kids as I don't literally mean they get booted like Beckham from Fergie or Bush from the Iraqi journalist, but you get my drift).

So one of the shops we stopped by actually sold PC games. Another quick aside, I've been looking for this PC game Neverwinter Nights 2 for a long, long while. There's lots of it sold in Malaysia, but they're not original. They don't sell the original in Malaysia (or my lousy hunting skills found nothing) and I can't buy them online as they don't ship to Malaysia (they won't let me download them either..zzz). So here was I, finding a copy of the game, in it's original form. I was hoping it was and incompatible copy, as most, if not all games in HK are in Chinese. A quick ask and the shopkeeper told me the one on display is the ONLY ENGLISH copy he has. I asked my host if I should buy and his reply was (somewhat like this) " You're asking a gamer. I don't wait until it's old so that I buy them off cheap".

Suffice to say my credit card had another charge from HK for about HKD 290. This game was more expensive than my jacket, mind you...(Sorry to disappoint anyone expecting more juicy 'sinful' stories. hehe). After that, I told my host I'm not getting the shoe as I didn't want to bust my budget. I actually could afford it (I actually manage my credit card quite well, mind you..:P) but as the other day, key to stemming a spree is to stop short from starting it.

The rest of the day/night was relatively uneventful. No, I didn't bathe in cold water again as I already knew how to operate the heater by now. Oh, it's still bloody cold.


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Saturday was a slow day. My host I guess had a long night as I slept much earlier than he did. By the time he woke up it was already afternoon.

The plan was lunch, then Star Ferry. HK still has this ferry service that gets people from the island to Kowloon, at only HKD 2.20. As usual, its not exactly light speed when you compare to the other transportation services available. But it was quite crowded as well. I mean, I'm not the only tourist you know..

I'm thinking and thinking and I can't recall what I had for lunch. It was something, I guess. So we went to the Star Ferry after a train ride. The ferries look a little old, but it was still fun to ride. I mean, at HKD 2.20, who cares?

On the Star Ferry

That's me posing inside the ferry. Must have done something right since my eyes returned. Wonder if doing sinful things have anything to do with it?

View from the Star Ferry

That's a picture I took while I was on the ferry. I have no idea what it is or where it is, but of the other pictures I also took, this looked best.

Lead up to harbour City

Alighting on the other side, we were just next to Harbour City, another huge shopping complex. Oh, I must have forgotten to mention, HK is just one big shopping complex after another. No wonder the people earn so much, since retail theraphy is probably the most convenient one they'll find to kill the stress/blues.

Nice X'mas Deco of Harbour City

I wanted to show more of the majestic deco the entrance had, but again poor skills *whisper* (equipment) let me down. There was a cruise ship docked nest to the complex, but the picture had my host in it so lack of photoshopping expertise meant that picture got the cut (the irony, hehe..)

A lot of walking and window shopping later, we decided to walk to the nearest MTR station, which neither of us knew where it was. Asking the locals only got us in the right direction, but somehow we seem to miss the nearest station anyway and walked all the way to the next one. By now my knees really, really hurt but somehow being on a holiday kind of helped me keep walking.

My host needed to get some movie tickets for the next day, so we ended up stopping somewhere in the middle of the MTR line and went to yet another shopping complex. The only thing worth mentioning was how my host proved to be a Sony faithful when he bought a Sony camera after asking several stores and finding the cheapest one. No, he didn't ask about other brands, just Sony.

It was getting late, so it's time to return home. My host suggested dinner near the apartment as there's suppose to be some nice 'low mien' for me to try. I also finally caved in and tried HK's chilli oil. It's like sambal in Malaysia, except that it's oil. Just oil. (Ok, some colouring and maybe chilli, but mostly you only see oil). I also bought some egg tarts from the restaurant we had dinner with, since everyone said their egg tarts were good. Me? So so only.....hehehe

Oops. Somewhere between the night on Friday and the night on Saturday, I returned to Sogo to buy some 'wife biscuits' (lou poh pang). It was the only biscuit I knew it's kind of HK specific and because I bought it for my Singapore colleague on Wednesday night while he went clubbing, I had some experience in getting 'that'. It was funny as I started of asking for a box of 'wife biscuit', but noticed there were other things there that wasn't too expensive. (The 'wife biscuits' were HKD 4 each. A box holds 6). So I asked for 1 each of 2 other kinds of biscuits, only to try them after a short while and found them nice. So I brought my host a round back to the same shop so I could get more biscuits. Last I checked, they were a hit back home. I obvious didn't buy enough. Unfortunately now I don't know what they're called either..hahaha..

Back to Saturday night, after dinner, my host asked if I wanted to check out the club house. Inside they had an indoor pool, 4 bowling alleys, snooker, pool, badminton courts, tennis courts, some space for boardgames and most importantly, a music room. If only I knew! I'd have sneaked in and destroy the piano!! muahahahaha. He did ask if I wanted to bowl, but by now my knees were close to giving way so that option wasn't taken up. I probably saved myself some humiliation anyway...

There was a picture taken outside his apartment compound, but it looks a little out of focus (my skills are bad, but my hosts are.....ahem...:P). Back in the apartment, we played Winning 11 and I got trashed. Well, he did have the PS3 and all I have is some rundown PC. Besides, I have the dexterity of a klutz.

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On the final morning in Hong Kong we did what all hongkies love doing. It's 'yum cha'. That's just people visiting a nearby reataurant, order a pot of tea and then random dim sum to spend the day. my host says some older folks actually spend the whole day that way. To think the restaurants make it a point to cycle through customers as fast as possible, I guess it's not happening in a 'yum cha' place.

What I do like about HK dim sum is that the ingredients are really good. They use large prawns for their 'har kau' and in most of their dim sum, you don't get this feeling of being cheated with inferior ingredients. Its the expectation there anyway, and as with the rest of HK, the expectations of quality and service is way higher than I am used to. Not like I mind one bit, but definitely hope the standards can be met back home.....alas.....

As I was about to leave, I couldn't help thinking that I never tried their 'siew yuk' as well as Burger King. With my plane leaving at 3.50pm, I knew if the airport had Burger King then I'd have time to taste it. So as I leave the dim sum restaurant, the sight of them hanging the 'siew yuk' to dry just did it for me. before you know it, I had a takeaway of 'siew yuk' (which cost me HKD 44). I had plan it to complement my Burger King as lunch, but, as you'll find out later, didn't quite work out.

It's time to go. It so happened that from my hosts place there is a bus that sends me all the way to the airport for a meagre HKD 22. Also, it's a double decker bus!!

Me on a Double Decker Bus on the way to HK Airport

I tried my level best to take a proper photo of myself on the bus, but that's just as good as it gets. I got on the bus at 11am, expecting the ride to take an hour or so. However, since it was a Sunday there was hardly any traffic and the ride was faster. But, as highways are and always will be boring, so was the ride. Luckiliy some random person decides to sms me while I was on the way, so that kept me busy for a while. :)

I arrived the airport slightly before 12pm and proceeded to check in. Little did I know that the ground crew was going to offer me a seat on the plane departing at 12.55pm! I was worried that my 'siew yuk' would be a problem, as it's neither properly wrapped or can I eat it straight away as I was still quite full from breakfast. The crew thought nothing of it and before long, I was racing away to the customs to avoid missing my plane! (I know I should have waited for my own plane, in that way no rush at all, but really, who wants to wait in the airport for 3 hours??)

All that rushing meant 2 things; 1) I couldn't eat my 'siew yuk', so I'll have to take that back home. I hope customs doesn't decide to have a look, as they might not fancy the smell or the sight. 2) My Burger King!!! :(( I had no time to queue for a Whopper as the time it took me to get to my terminal was longer than I expected. Burger King is a big miss for me.....:(

The flight back was a complete non-event except for the fact I already planned to watch Dark Knight on the return flight, only for them to have a broken copy of the movie on board! I ended up watching X-Files, which was crap. sigh..

5 hours after departing and saying goodbye to HK, I was back home again.....

It has been fun, so i'll list my thoughts and learnings in the next post!

A day to waste away in HK....Part 5 of the HK trip

It is now Friday, 5th December 2008. My host has an early morning meeting at work, so I am to follow him to the island in the morning. As I've always been, I'm an early riser when I'm not at home (even now, when I'm at home, I wake up too early, I think...) but my host was not as early as me. When he did wake up, I was already playing with his PS3 :D. He asked me if I used the heater to shower the night before, so I told him I didn't (and he had a good laugh). Luckily for me he forgot to turn off the heater overnight so when I bathed in the morning I didn't have to do cold water!

Since he was running a little late for his meeting, he showed me a place where they have nice beef noodles so that I can try them for breakfast. Now, the morning before my pork chop with tea came to about HKD 30, so imagine my surprise when my beef noodles only cost HKD 15! So I got itchy fingers and decided to order a bowl of beef balls as well. The beef balls were quite big and there was around 7 of them I think, but.....The beef balls cost HKD 19! Should have just stuck with the noodles.

I had time to kill after breakfast and it was quite awkward to eat without something to read. I did hope to get some free paper near the MTR station as they generally do give them away the previous mornings, but this morning I had no luck. Also, my knees were getting worse so I kept having to find pathways that did not include stairs down.

Since I had time to kill while waiting for my host to finish with his meeting, I decided to do a little exploring around the area until my knees gave up. I walked and walked and walked so much I found myself at the shopping complex of the next station, which, is none other than City Plaza. Seeing that I've walked a little too far, I tracked back just in time to meet up with my host who finished his meeting.

Now the plan for the day was some tram rides and a visit to the giant Buddha in Lantau Island. These trams are old and still run through the HK island, so I thought it'd be nice to hop on one of them. It only cost HKD 2 per person anyway. Aside from it's slow pace, it did provide an opportunity to see HK island. Though with my limited view, all I see is shops at the ground levels and losts of apartments above them..Everywhere..

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That's taken from a tram.

After we got off the tram we took the train to Lantau Island where the Buddha thing was at the last stop. The train ride was somewhat uneventful so much that I think we both dozed off. We got off at the last stop and was surprised that there weren't any clear signs to lead us to the Buddha. Seems like everyone in HK knows how to get there, so don't mind the tourist. My host hasn't been there either, so we had to walk around a bit before finding the cable car stations. Hongkies call it 360, which is what it's named anyway. Don't know how that name came to be.

Arriving at the cable car station the prices to get on the cable car was quite steep. HKD 96 return. If you wanted to check out their display rooms, then it's HKD 130ish I think. Since neither one of us were keen with the showrooms/display rooms, we went for just the ride up.

The cable ride was interesting enough. Had a good view of the HK airport too.
View of HK Airport from Gondola

Unfortunately my photography skills betray me. I'd like to blame the camera too, but since it isn't mine, better not say too much else I might not even get to borrow it the next time.

Oh, the customary..
I don't have eyes, you see..

Don't ask me where my eyes went. I don't know. Didn't notice it when I took the picture and don't know how to photoshop it. Too bad.

Arriving at the place, there were some shops laid out along the pathway, which supposedly used to be the village. Funnily enough we decided to have some icecream, despite us being about 300-400 feet above sea level and in Winter. A short trek later here's the giant arch to welcome tourist

Gateway to Hel...hehehe

Here's the hill next to it

Hill/Mountain?

Now, this Buddha is strategically located right up the hill (not up that hill, but the one I'm on, which you'll see better later), so there's a couple of hundred steps to climb before being within proper distance to take a picture. At the foot of the steps, there's this thing

Some Giant..

Which I really don't know what it was. It was huge, so I figure worth taking a picture off.

Now for those who read my Batu Caves adventure, here's another Ego trip for me. Know that I had knees that were in pain. Yet suprisingly, I had no problems climbing the stairs, unlike my happily settled host, who needed several stops before we reach the top. Dejavu for me, except that one is already married while the earlier one (in Batu Caves) is getting to it.

Big Bad Buddha

Here's big old Buddha. Don't ask me why, I don't know. I do know that there's suppose to be an inner sanctum of sorts within, but you'd have to have paid for vegetarian meal below before they'd let you go in. Surronding the Buddha is these six

One of Six
Two of Six
Three of Six
Four of Six
Five of Six
Six of Six
Aside from these 6 sculptures and lots of tourist, there isn't much to describe or to take photos off.

Then came the real problem. You see, while I have no problems going up, my knees have a problem going down. Don't ask me why, I don't know either. I just know they hurt everytime I go one step down. And this is 250+ steps down...

Not really that far...

Pain....Real pain..

Though for some reason after the steps me and my host still feels up for some more travelling. Earlier in the day we meet up with some of my host's colleagues before we got on the tram for a short breafast. In the discussion, there was talks about this fishing village that sold salted fish. While I'm not the type to buy souveniers home for random people, I am the type to buy food back if I can and salted fish was a good option. In the conversation they mentioned it's just a bus ride away and closeby to the '360' thingy. So after we returned via cable car, the fishing village was our next stop.

The bus itself was rather ordinary and the ride was kinda boring. Suffice to say dozing off was yet another preferred pasttime. About an hour later we arrived only to find it IS, indeed, just a fishing village.

Signboard not enough?
Tai O fishing boats
There were no nice lights or was it bustling with people. It was quiet and there was a fishy smell in the air. It took us less than 20 minutes to explore the whole place. Randomly picking a store, I bought 2 salted fish and then we were back to catching the bus ride.

Even now, I still wonder why I spent 2 hours, HKD 23.60 (bus fare) just to buy 2 salted fish worht HKD 50. Silly boy..

But the day isn't over. Ok, the day is, but the night was still young..(hehe, if you think something indulgent and sinful is coming up, you are correct!)

But then again, this is still me doing the writing, you know.....

Now the adventure really begins.....Part 4 of the HK Trip

And I waited...

Ok, I didn't really have to wait too long before a smiling familiar face turned up around 6.50pm-ish. It did look like a flabbier face than I last remember it, but being chinese and what they say about growing horizontally once married is an indication of happiness in life, I thought nothing negative of it.

Oh, in any case, yes, my host, a Malaysian working in Hong Kong, did turn up. (Hereon referred to as host as I'm not sure he'd like it so much if I name him). He just finished work, or to be more accurate, he's on half day leave. A brief hello (like we meet each other everyday) later I was asked to re-enter the MTR as we were going off to his place which is near a MTR station. (Unfortunately, I can't for the life of me remember the station. It's in Kowloon though...)

3 stops (I think) later, my host asked me to disembark and lo and behold, his apartment is right above the station. Like, really, above it. Some 20 odd stories above (I also forgot what floor, sigh..Growing old I say..) Interestingly getting from the station exit to his apartment lifts required us to go through 3 'gates' which he doesn't fancy much but I think it's good security. A bit of a walk around the area later and a ride up the apartment lifts I find myself at his home.

It was a nice 2-room apartment, though for a person used to Malaysian sized apartments (and one living now in a 1500 square feet(sf) place) you'd find the apartments small and expensive. His was just shy of 800 sf, but cost a whopping HKD 3 million! Ok, so HK real estate is a killer, if you don't know by now. But his apartment is very convenient and has great facilities too (unfortunately, he only showed them to me on my final night there.) Luckily for me his wife and kids have recently returned to Malaysia, so I didn't have to sleep on the couch. Unfortunately, however, nothing really beats sleeping in your own bed at home, so I still had some adjusting to do. Not to mention the cold. So so cold (Ok, it's only because this dumb bloke hasn't spent near 0.01% of his lifetime in any climate other than hot, humid, Malaysian like weather (Singapore's no better), so winter IS a PROBLEM). Oh, I also had rashes ALL OVER MY BODY.......

Enough rambling. Dropping off my luggage, we went to dinner at a standard HK 'restaurant' which is much like coffee shops in Malaysia except its the same dudes that serve you drinks that serve you food. One day a Malaysian should go there and bring them the concept of owning a place, sell drinks and have loads of other blokes sell food for you. I don't recall what I ate, but it wasn't anything spectacular. As it was already getting late, we ended up walking around the complexes there and my host decided to drop by a console game shop to get his latest fixes.

You see, I didn't know that my host was quite an avid gamer. He owns a PS3 at home and has several PSPs for him and his family. So suffice to say I was never short of entertainment whenever we we resting at his place. This is turning into a great holiday! Muahahaha

Oh, a quick note about the bathroom. It's like this cool bathroom even though it's quite compact with bathtub and shower. Considering it was cold, I obviously needed hot water. But while I was getting ready to bathe, my host was having an 'in-depth' conversation via skype with his sister and I couldn't find myself to trouble him and ask how to activate the heater. So there I was, already shivering in the cold, bathing in COLD WATER!! brrrrrrrrrrrbrrrrrrrrrbrrrrrrr....

So, I'm not going to spend 3 nights 3 days in HK playing console games, am I?

Seen from my bedroom window...

View from my room at home

Friday, December 26, 2008

The adventure begins!....Part 3 of the HK Trip

Thursday morning and for the first time me and my chinese colleague decided to grab some authentic HK breakfast. You see, during the training we couldn't because we had this muslim colleague to be 'thoughtful' of, but for this breakfast we kinda made it known we weren't going to settle for anything BUT non-halal food. I think he ended up having instant noodles. oops. I had pork chop and 'nai cha'! Yipee. Unfortunately 'nai cha', which is the equivelant of a 'teh tarik' in Malaysia, doesn't come close to as nice. I miss my country already..:(

Now, a little bit about my 'friend' in HK. Well, to those that know me know that I have few friends, if any, at all. I'm just not all that friendly, I guess. My loss. This guy I got to know from playing Raw Deal wrestling card games. Over time, we had some trades and with the game dead and him moving to HK, he asked me to caretake some of his more expensive cards in a hope to liquidify them. Number of cards i've sold? NONE. hehe. He also offered to host if I ever decided to visit HK. So i took up the offer.

Now aside from his HP number, I have no other way to contact him. No email, no work address. I didn't even know where he lives! My colleagues in HK keep reminding me to find out where he lives so I can plan how to get to the airport on sunday but all I could tell them is I'd only find out when I meet him. I won't deny the whole time in HK I contemplated the possibility he might not turn up where we were suppose to meet on Thurday evening, leaving me relatively stranded and having to fork out more money just to find a place to stay and not get targeted by crooks who could obviously tell that I'm lost. I just kept telling myself,"My life is never that interesting..."...

Anyway, it was still a while before I would meet my host. I decided to tag along with the 2 guys to Mongkok which was where they'd be staying that one night. After seeing them lug their luggage all over HK (I kept mine in the office, as it is near where I'd meet up with my host later) and checking into a very 'space efficient' room, I wondered if I'd even have a place to sleep the next 3 nights. We then decided to go shopwalk as they seemed keen to find some items to buy back home. Me? I'm not buying nobody nothing but me. hehehe. I wan't even planning to buy anything for me as I didn't know if the items were cheaper in Malaysia.

Funnily, we stopped by a Bossini shop and they had this green jacket at HKD 199. Now, did I fail to mention it's winter over there? I did have a jacket, which I've worn the last 3 days, but getting another would be nice. The other guys just kept saying to buy it as it's cheap. I wouldn't be able to tell. So I asked the salesgirl to get me and XL or bigger, in hope that I'd get to check it out. Instead, they found the size I wanted and proceeded straight to the payment counter. I'm not that fast, you know...(nevertheless, I do own a green jacket now....)

We had McDonalds for lunch but I forgot to ask them what was pork. Dang. My muslim colleague only had fries. How sad. More walking later and I realised that all of a sudden my knees hurt. Mostly my left knee. So I called it quits and proceeded back to the office before meeting up with my host.

After grabbing my luggage, I proceeded to do this...
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Man, that was stupid. SEETOOPEED. But I still managed to get a picture of my utter stupidity. how smart is that? hehe. Yeah, I laughed myself. I just couldn't do it out loud as I was putting on a pitiful face so that the MTR person could help me out. Suffice to say I didn't make that mistake anymore in HK, or well, any other place I plan to go to in the future..

Me and my host we to meet at one of the MTR stations at 6.30pm. I was of course, early (Malaysian time? What's that). So I waited. Oh, did I also mention that the last time I met him was in February? So I don't remember his face all that much. by the time 6.30pm came and went I told myself if he doesn't turn up by 7pm, I better get ready for a contingency.

And I waited...

and waited...

The Training Days...Part 2 of HK Trip

Now the time I spent in HK while on training wasn't much of a story. It was a 2 full day training. While breakfast and lunch were provided (we weren't told initially..) dinner was a free for all (to my detriment). I took the 9.50am-ish flight out of KLIA with Cathay Pacific and found their services not much different from MAS or SIA. (Air Asia still sucks, but then you get what you pay for...) But my return flight....(later, later...)

When we touched down, I had this feeling since there were 3 of us, one of us is going to have luggage issues. I was right. Luckily it wasn't me, but the other guy (one of the 2) got his luggage delayed and only got his luggage at 4am in the morning the next day. Fortunately, the HK Airport personnel were quick to advise about it and tell him what to do. Such great service!

We took a cab to the hotel. Cab metre begins at HKD 16 for 2KM and each 150 metres is HKD 1.40. (Compared to Malaysia, where it is (should still be) RM 2 for 2KM and then RM 0.15 every 100 metres. I think.) Hence then I assured myself converting back to RM each time I spent would be a nightmare.

Speaking of which, I only brought HKD 700 in cash, when everyone was already complaining HKD 1K isn't enough. So how do you think I fared? Hehehe

Once arrived at the hotel I promptly checked in. I then observed something. In HK, they are willing to commit 1 person, or more, to just stand around acting like human information counters. At the airport, in the hotel, at the subway, everywhere. IMPRESSIVE!! Because the way I see it, why waste the cost of 1 (or more) human resource when you can easily just set up a PC to do that? One time cost, rather then a recurring cost. There are more 'service' oriented culture I see in HK. More of that later.

That night I had planned to have dinner with my colleague in HK, so a phone call later and off I went to HK office in City Plaza via the MTR (forgot what it means). I ended up late, however, not because the directions given to this place I know not was hard to follow, or I just got lost, but I realised it's cold out there and I had to return to the hotel to grab a jacket. Dinner was uneventful and I didn't do much walking on the first night as I was rather tired.

The next morning I woke up with rashes all over my legs and arms. I thought the bed was maybe dirty, but it looked clean. Eventually. after only returning to Malaysia, I realised that it was because I had an allergic reaction, probably to the air (HK is rather hazy) or the weather (my first winter!). Oh well. Fortunately the itchiness wasn't all that bad until I got back home.

So from my hotel I got to the Causeway Bay station
Me at Start

Then headed to Tai Koo where the office is located relatively above it
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Hmm. Pictures look funny. But they are proof!. Haha!

On the way to the office i get to go through this shopping mall and they decided that the 3 blokes who followed that star that lead them to the newborn baby looks like
3 Giant men....

I personally doubt they're that huge, if they even existed. Ok, i'll not get into the whole farceness of Christmas less I get hauled up by the church. hehe, luckily I live in Malaysia, where things like these don't get the officials attention. :P

Aside from meeting people from the company from various countries, having catered food, the only other thing worth mentioning was that on the Tuesday night during dinner, I had Kobe Beef at a Japanese Restaurant. That meal cost HKD 605!!!!!!!!! Just the beef alone! It it was a small portion! Not worth it I tell you (and I'm living to regret ordering that meal now....But that's another OTHER story...:( )

Then, when we decided to walk the streets to do some window shopping, I decided it was getting to late (it was 9pm me thinks) and I decided to find my own way back. Unfortunately, while doing window shopping, I allowed my 2 chinese educated colleagues to lead and completely forgot to remember signs and roads to find my own way back. After walking along a major street up until I see it linking up to the highway, I realised I was lost. Yes, ME, LOST. A little too late to join the cast but hey, better late then never. So I turned back and lo and behold, I was just heading in the opposite direction. No wonder I felt I was going further and further away. All this time I was wanting to pee too. But no, my pants were dry even when I returned to the Hotel. Not getting something embarrasing here..But wait, I have just the right thing...

Fast foward to Wednesday night, when all is said and done, me along with 3 other colleagues decided to go up Victoria Hill. A cab ride, a tram ride and waiting until night time, I saw
So much Electricity used....

Sorry, pictures kind of fuzzy. Too much electricity used, my camera get's overloaded..:P

Then on the way back...
On the Cable Train coming down from Vic's Peak..

That's me on the tram going downhill. I wanted to snap a shot of the train going downhill to show the degree of slant, but alas, amateur cameraman ME couldn't do it. I want to blame the camera, but then again, who'd believe it?

The rest of the gang decided to visit the pubs and nightspots nearby so I left them for dead..I mean, left them to return to the hotel. Luckily, me and my somewhat absent sense of direction found myself crossing a bridge, walking through a park, a building and then some before finding the train station. I still managed to get back before everyone else, so....Not lost this time around..hehe

So the training is over and the paid hotel stay is over..What's next? Where the real adventure begins!

And so it begins....Part 1 of HK Trip

I.e. Prologue..

But then again, it's not as interesting as my Raw Deal adventures in Singapore, so I wouldn't really go story like. But I do have more photos and will try to recall as much as I can.

Here goes...

PROLOGUE:

About 4 months back I was asked to volunteer for a 'team' in my company which has recently seen some people 'leave'. I was keen before, but back when it was first introduced in 2005 I was in a sorry state (I think if you check my 2005 entries you'd find out why) so I passed the opportunity then. So now that it's done a boomerang, bandwagon I jump!

Little did I know each new member of this 'team' needs to go through a 'start up' training of sorts and it's only conducted by the 'specialists' in the field. That training is to be done in HK.

What? No dance of joy? I get a trip to HK and no dance of joy? Ridiculous!

Considering the times we are in now, me being in an American company meant that trips like this were bound to get axed. (I have since gone and returned, so you should now that it didn't..) There were 4 in Malaysia going and 2 of the guys have already started to plan to take a day's leave to venture around HK on their own. At first I wasn't keen as I really don't know what I'll do there. I'm not much of a traveller, you see. But as time went by I got pressured into making most out of the opportunity (and since I've gone and returned....You know the drill). I then tried to reach out to one of the guys I got to know via Raw Deal, who, as things have it, is now working in HK, hoping for some free accomodation for that 1 day's stay. Accomodation is expensive in HK, even if you aren't all that picky (Ok, I wasn't ready to stay 3 nights at a 4-5 star hotel on my company and then go backpacking for 1 more night.)

Several weeks past and my SMS to that guy never got replied. Then on a fateful lunch hour last month, he called and asked if I was indeed planning to go. he even offered to host me more than just one day, if I wanted. Flustered, I asked to stay until Sunday (Oops. Training starts on Tuesday and ends on Wednesday. Monday was to travel to HK. Thursday, had I not extended, was to return back to Malaysia. So if I leave on Sunday, it would be 3 full days on my own.). He said ok. So from someone who was suppose to not spend any personal time in HK (compared to the others) i am now the one staying the longest!

Oh, just to side track a bit, while I was in a limbo waiting for his reply, I did try to get my other colleagues in HK to 'host', but I guess it was not meant to be. I have no qualms, however, as you'll find out!

After 8 years, I once again get an opportunity to go to HK. I will however, promise myself to not make that big boo boo 8 years ago and remember that I should at the very least TRY to have a good time even though I'm not paying (all) of the expenses! (For the days I was on my own, I was ON MY OWN...In case someone I don't expect to see this sees this...:p)

Well, time to talk about the trip....(Gotta rack up some post counts!)

Friday, December 12, 2008

So far, so good?

Well, I haven't blogged in a while. That's because I spent the whole of last week in Hong Kong, which I have taken photos and 'eventually' will post it up here.

For the moment, here's a quick update:

1) HK was fun and enjoyable. Not without setbacks however, but could easily have had more..More on that much much later.
2) Me as a boy gamer was fed a nice meal in HK...Also more on that later..
3) Liverpool is on top of the league, yet I don't feel all that happy. Must be because past history shows that they've been there before, but not after X'mas....
4) I've unresolved personal issues. Wait, that's always the case, no? haha
5) I'm still lazy with practise. With the current financial situation, spending RM 5K+ on a piano isn't exactly spend thrift and wise...Oh, what have I gotten myself into this time???
6) Work has been....Unproductive. Need to find that zest at work again. Thought I found one then some managerial bloke decides my Kobe Beef is too expensive...Wait, this is again part of my HK experience...
7) It's funny how sometimes you don't really need to know someone a whole lot to be a whole lot nicer to them. I was on the receiving end this time and it's a weird feeling. Again, this is yet another HK story.

Looks like I have lots to tell about my HK experience. Hopefully I'll find time in between beating the crap out of Heroes 5: Tribes of the East to post the pictures et all..No, I shouldn't do all that at work......Really....zzzzzz

Friday, November 21, 2008

Not so many weeks ago...

I actually, finally, made it to......

Batu Caves!!!

Now, for those unfamiliar, Batu Caves is somewhat of a tourist/religious place on the outskirts of KL, where I've been living all my life (and now too even though I'm technically in another state) which being a KL-ite, I should have been several times before in my lifetime.

But me being me, I've never, I mean, not ever, set foot on that holy ground until now..Or in proper timelines, 20 days ago.

This place isn't really big, but it does have a really big statue supposedly in gold (at least it looks like it, though I can't fathom why on earth humanity would waste so much gold on such a big thing, which makes me belief it could just be the colour...). Now in case I myself forget when I was and what I did there, here's some photo evidence (and no, I didn't do no photoshopping since really, I don't know how....yet...)

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That's me in my overused Lord of the Rings T-Shirt..Which I got free from Comics Corner...hehehe. Oh, The pidgeons were to busy scurrying for food they ignored me as a potential toilet....:P

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That's the statue I was talking about. Now as you can tell, thanks to non-existent special effects, I look smaller than the statue. Really, I'm bigger.. I mean it.. Really..No, don't believe?? Dang....I did try....:p Oh, notice the step all the way up? That's the main 'tourist' thing, climbing the stairs. I was there with a friend, so was this bunch of primary school kids. Unfortunately taking photos of random kids I know not off may result in some paedophilia trigger somewhere on the internet had I posted it so I decided to not take any of their photographs as proof. You'll just have to believe me that there were these kids around. Why are they so important that I had to mention them? Wait for it....

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Oops. Said it too soon. I did catch them on the background of this photo. I repeat, that was unintentional (now where's that sod of a camera man I relied upon to take my photo WITHOUT the kids in it...Gonna give him a good hiding!) In any case, I'm right at the bottom, preparing my ascend and these kids were already running up the stairs. Now, it's just 272 steps, so surely it's not a problem. (yeah right. Tell that to the fumbling cameraman going there with me!)

Much like the story about the hare and the tortoise, the hare (those pesky school kids) ran quicky up the summit while the tortoise (Me. My friend couldn't run even if he wanted to, haha!) slowly went up one step at a time at an appropriate pace. While I didn't really required any stopping (it is really just 272 steps after all...), we did end up taking some breather so that the other 'young man' can catch up...As for the kids? needless to say, much like the tortoise eventually catching up to the hare and finishing first, the kids ended up puncturing midway top half as I expected. Wisdom does come with age sometimes....hehe

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Now this was me right after the steps. I don't look tired one bit (shhh). As for the other guy...well...How many times can I use him as a target of ridicule in one blog entry (err, plenty..But in real life I'll probably get 2 girly slaps, 1 chick kick and a Widow's Peak to boot, since he like's Victoria so much..:p). Anyway, the cave looks quite impressive and there are several Hindu idols/gods to worship ( I think, I maybe wrong since I didn't really find out for sure). We venture deeper into the cave and here are 2 more photos of the view from within.

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Oh wait, what's this?

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Well, I guess it's nice to see a relative even in these places. Unfortunately being related and all, it knew I had no food to offer hence the disappointed look away..:-(

After we were glad we 'conquered' Batu Caves, we decided to take an unplanned visit to the caves next door, aptly named dark caves (I think. haha). Now this was a cave which is riddled with bat poo (I don't recall the proper term, too bad) and cockroaches and it stinks, but we figured since we're unlikely to ever make a trip to Batu Caves for the rest of our lives, might as well. It's a paid tour by the way. RM 35 for an educational trip. Again, thanks to the poo and the roaches, do not venture if you can't take the perfume...I mean, fume....:p

The cave was nice and all and we were given a quick lesson on caves and why over time the cave turned into what it is now. Luckily they allowed us to take pictures at one spot inside the cave. They call it the 'air-cond' area. That's because this part of the cave is smallest in diameter and with a nearby entry to the cave provides air that fizzes through the cave more quickly there than anywhere else we get a really cool breeze constantly. Hence the temperature there is lower. Oh, more photo..

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Yup. That's the poor bloke who got conned into being the scapegoat of all my snipes on this blog entry. Thank you for volunteering. It was nice of you to go through all that and end up becoming target practice. At least the pidgeons avoided you too!

After we exited the dark cave, which, by the way, is called so because if we we to lose our torchlights inside the cave we would be in pitch dark. Really pitch dark. Ok, so dark cave visited, Batu Caves conquered. Next?

Time for me to pitch a trip to Gua Niah, the world's largest natural cave ( I think....haha!)

So who's interested??

Monday, November 17, 2008

Mamma Mia!

Watched it last Saturday. It was funny in the sense it was a movie I wasn't all that keen to watch but I seemed destined to watch it anyway. Over the course of a month since it came out, I seem to be in a position where I would be and then I wouldn't be watching it. But now I have. So what's the verdict?

The verdict is that it was an entertaining movie. Not because I am an Abba fan, I'm not. I only know 1 of their songs by heart and it isn't even their most catchy tune. I have no idea why I know that song. All I could remember is that my elder brother about 16-18 years ago had the lyrics and since then I've more or less still remember the lyrics. Which song? 192116518 2018152116518.. hehehe...

Why the movie was so entertaining was for several reasons:

1) I believe the biggest reason is because I've always wanted to write a musical. Ok, want and actually being able to do it is 2 completely different things. I always toyed the idea of telling a story with just the songs. I would turn my life into a musical if I had better way with lyrics but no thanks to my poor command of English, I always find myself repeating the same old lines. Which is boring, since the music always seems new. (ok, the music seems new because I can hardly recall the previous ones since they were all impromptu).

2) The young woman playing the daughter of the lead actress had such a great voice. Reminds me of the time I felt so buoyed by hearing female choir singers. But this was just one person. Still, I guess i'm a sucker for good voices, or at least, voices that appeals to me. I'm sure my mom would never like Amy Lee, but I admire her voice to no end.

3) The movie was a no brainer to some extent, though it did have an interesting dialog. I didn't enjoy watching Pierce Brosnan try so so so hard to sing in tune however. He did managed, but you can tell he was in pain. hahaha.

Now my problem is getting Abba out of my head. Some of their songs can be quite, timely and it doesn't help me when I need to have my mind thinking about other things.

Time to listen to Tragic Symphony again...:p

Monday, November 10, 2008

YES!!!!!!!!!

I've finally gotten a soft copy of Schubert's Symphony no.4 in C minor "Tragic"!!!!


Listening to it as I type....This is going to be a lifesaver in my times of troubles....And what troubling times indeed it is...

Now I need to get my hands on Mozart's Piano Concerto no. 20 in D Minor. Bizet's Farandole (proper copy). I should be able to complete another CD of angst recovery, similar to my Evanescence CD.

Hmm, I might live after all.....hahahaha

Monday, November 03, 2008

Interesting developments at work...

For those who were clued in, I'll mention it here quickly. I am not retrenched (yet)....I've seen enough information that makes me feel somewhat secure of my not too distant future, so all's good so far.

HOWEVER.....Aside from knowing I will have a job for the short term, I've noticed a drastic change in the atmosphere of my office.

It started on 2 fronts. One is a strained relationship with a colleague of mine which I believe is due to irreconsilable differences. Now that's fine with me, but let's keep business, business, please?

The other stems from the fact that with the recent changes in my company, knowledge of what's to be can be both powerful and dangerous. Where I sit, as a large group, we are one. But on a smaller scale, I'm dwarfed by a larger team of 4 women who's boss is also a woman. Oh, I'm a one man show with a female boss too. A different female boss. As their boss is located in KL (mine's in Australia, btw.) they got news of the changes first. When the first person came in, she was shivering and ended up giving me some idea of what was told. Me being me, that's as far as it goes. I think she was reprimanded by the other colleague (see above) to not discuss it as it wasn't public knowledge yet. Now, I've been expecting these changes for awhile as I've been clued in as much as I can by my boss in Australia. So I kinda expect this to happen. Not so much of a news to me, the new's I'm to hear from my boss later in the afternoon was by far more....intriguing.

So they go about not talking about it but in their casual conversation they didn't have a problem hinting it left, right and centre. Take top and bottom too. Or maybe I was just sensitive. In any case, my boss calls and while what I can say now is that I was told I'd be safe and I was told I'd be joining the bigger team soon as a new construct of sorts. Jolly good news...Until recently, that is. But what I didn't know was that the other team's communique was of a lesser extent. They know about them and that's it. They know not about our larger larger group and it's fate. I do. So it made sense for me to not allude much but just plain keep my mouth shut.

But I couldn't. The news was so big for me I had to talk. So I went to talk to a senior manager in my company (yes, as senior as it can go where I am based) and spilled my beans. A good 30 minutes later it wasn't so bad but I still was a little sore. Oh well, change sucks. Get use to it..

Then a few days later, their boss called for a meeting which at first didn't involve me. Now, I'm used to them doing things without me. As bad as it feels, if it ain't my problem, don't get involved. But it turns out the meeting was to find out if one of them spoke to me about what they know and obviously the boss is not happy. And, that colleague of mine (see above, haha!) later hinted they think I spilled elsewhere. Which I did, but only to someone of a much higher level. Is that wrong? Funny though, I'd have my boss tell me things too, no? They're not the only ones with access to the news, you know....

So I denied it and acted dumb. While the official announcement was still a way to go, the team gleefully incorporated what's to be in their casual conversation. And they have the cheek to want to find out who told me??? Gosh, I'd have to be dumb AND STUPID to not find out at the rate they were going. Wait, probably being dumb wouldn't help. Deaf, maybe...

So I got pissed and started alienating myself that day. Just that day.

Since then, I keep getting this feeling they've convened and decided to treat me as I have. Now I'm feeling more and more alienated from that bigger team than before. They'd talk, ask random questions and I'd never get involved. I sometimes try to join in, but it feels so uncomfortable. They would talk across the room but all that's been said is for everyone but me..

Now, I wouldn't give 2 hoots if we were still going to be 2 different teams of a larger department. But in a very near future, we will be ONE BIG FAMILY. I already feel like the bastard son. Now, that's bad business.

Maybe I'm just sensitive. I've alienated myself before but I've not felt that they cared. Now it seems like it's up to me to do something about it.

I'll have to wait for news about the new construct to know what my next steps are.

So much for me predicting them would leave the team first, since they've been complaining about their work since the day I joined. Initially I figured everyone's got complains, but....Anyway, I still feel I'll last longer than any of them. But changes have a way of fast tracking plans...

In any case, it's not the first time I'm left on my own. Story of my life. Get used to it.

Oh, just want to mention that there are actually 3 certainties in life. Death, Taxes and Change.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Random thought when I can't sleep

What happens if I get a heart attack and I've got only moments to reflect on my life? What would I have been happy to have done/not done and what would be my regrets?

Regrets:

1) Not leaving my legacy of the musical pieces in my mind. I should really start writing them down but procrastination and a severe lack of theory is making it tougher and tougher. Not to mention I think because I'm stil keeping them in my mind for so long, I have lost the ability to make new ones, as I keep going back to my previous melodies/themes.

2) Not having visited Gua Niah, which frankly speaking is the only real place I want to visit. Mainly because it is/was the largest natural cave in the world and it's right smack in my own country (though seperated by the South China Sea).

3) Not finding someone to love who will love me. For the man that I am and the woman that she is.

4) Having my parents live past my life. This I believe is the worst thing a normal child can do to their parents. Normal because a child that is already doing drugs, crime and what not would have done worse and those, somewhat isn't normal anymore.

Joys:

1) Not having to go through yet another heartache, after heartaches. Lazy yes, but then again, I'm not known to be able to handle my emotions anyway.

2) Being able to claim my insurances having only paying for it for about 1 year. Hahaha..Too bad I can't use any of the money.

3) That I have survived the urges of being evil and being materialistic. However as long as I still live, I will continue to fight against these influences.

Hmmm, looks like I have fewer joys than regrets..

Need work...Lots of work..

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Procrastination....

is my answer to impulsion.

I've always known I've been a rather impulsive person, despite my overall nature of being an 'anal planner'. As much as I like to plan, many things that I do happen at the spur of the moment. In the past I've always thought this was down to my weird mood swings. Recent events, however, has led me to realise this:

When I'm not Impulsive, I'll Procrastinate (infinitely, or maybe close).

Harsh words even to myself. Of course, for the things I must do, I will. But many things in life aren't always 'must'. Even eating, sleeping, drinking, in most instances, are a 'can' and not a 'must' until a very last moment.

I'll give some examples.

I currently live quite a long way from the city and my home is really quite nice to stick around on weekends. So unless I have something major that I must do, I wouldn't even go out, even to buy food for meals. Occasionally I'll get these impulse to go out somewhere. For that moment, if I decide to take it up, I will go. But if the decision is delayed (either because where I want to go to or who I want to go with isn't as decisive), then moments later, I will just retreat back to my previous condition and no longer wants to go anywhere.

Another example would have been my dream trip to Japan. I've thought of it many times, but everytime it's all thoughts and no action. Subsequently nothing comes out of it and these days, I'd rather not think of it knowing full well I won't do anything about it.

Now at some point I would say that I just lack the drive to do what I want to do, but I've also realised that if I had done everything I wanted to do on an impulse, I'd done many things I'd regret or even suffer in consequence. So in essence, my abilty to procrastinate has, one way or another, saved me from so many really silly decisions and actions. Of course, it has also made me miss so many opportunities and wasted so much time. But then again, not like actually pursuing those opportunities would have made things that much different. Potentiallity isn't the same as reality.

Having said that, I read an article by this M:tG designer/writer who I like reading alot and his most recent 2 parter was about his wedding. Oh, his wedding is way cool, for those who can appreciate a break from tradition. Unfortunately, for most people, the article would not make much sense as he intertwines his wedding story with M:tG design story. But in case you're curious (as I would), here's http://wizards.com/Magic/Magazine/Article.aspx?x=mtg/daily/mm/10 (it's part 2 by the way. You can get part 1 from the article link). Now I'm not talking about getting married here, but in his article he said that designers (or im my case, me), should learn to trust the gut. I would take that as trusting the moments I go on impulse. But how do I do that?

I guess that would probably take me even more years though by then, I'd probably have no gut feel to go about anymore. At least I could boast of the many things I didn't end up doing. How's that for positivity and seeing glasses half full??? hahahaha

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

At work..

and obviously not working...

This countdown (which incidentally, is now down to 5 days) is taking it's toll. After next weekend my life may change drastically, or may not change at all. But until that time is over and done with me, I'm in limbo.

Having said that, why let something as major as that ruin my current life (which, in reality, I wonder if I have one)? While I don't have much to blog about (actually, I have nothing to blog about..:p) I could run through some simple updates just to bide time.

1) I did meet up with that guy last Friday. He hasn't changed one bit. Looks, talks and acts the same. Drives the same car too. He has, however moved to his own landed property and while he hasn't switched jobs (not just company, but jobs! Where do you find people like that these days??) he has travelled much further than I have so kudos to him. It was a relatively quiet dinner since well, we're both rather socially inept guys..haha..

2) Not progressing as I should with my piano lessons. Not helped that I am not practicing enough as well as not having the right tools for practice. Looking out now for a reconditioned piano hoping to find a lucky break. The funny thing is, if I do get my piano, I'll have to lose my King sized bed as I have no more room in my room! (Oh yes, sleeping alone in a King sized bed can be, erm....spacious...:p) Which means more costs! This is going to get expensive.

3) Getting tired with the bugs that I face with NWN2. Looking more and more likely to buy the original so that I can get online patches and support. I want to finish the story..WANT.....zzzzzz

Tasol folks....

Friday, October 17, 2008

Network Marketing banes...

as I try to catch up with old pals.

Recently I've been dogged with this notion to catch up with people I used to know and maybe get an idea on how their lives have evolved. I don't remember most people in my past, but those I do I end up having a curious notion of 'what happened to you?' in me.

The only problem is, at the same time, everyone involved in Network Marketing is doing the same thing too. Calling up long lost friends, pals, colleagues, classmates, you name it they'll call it..Making me suddenly operating much like them and also having difficulty getting an appointment. How sad.

Well, again I would like to state for the record, Network Marketing is a scam!! (in most instances, anyway). I could never (yes, never) bring myself to actually get involved in Network Marketing because my conscience does not allow me to do so. So for anyone who reads here and knows me in real life, take note...(and be easy on this introverted guy because I don't make appointments a whole lot and the slightest obstacle turns me off big time..)

Haha, so anyway, for this guy I had to explain clearly I have no intention to sell him anything. We're meeting up today, if he doesn't feel like I'm lying. Though I can't be since really, I wouldn't have a clue what to sell him.

Candies anyone?? :p

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Too many things...

too little time. Or I'm just spending my time too much on the wrong things.

I haven't been practicing, which is bad since I'm paying for the classes. But recently I managed to find myself a installable copy of NeverWinter Nights 2 and since then, well, my life's been a CRPG. Which is bad since me being me, over-indulgence with PC games has a way of altering my life to become, well, un-life? Hahaha. Zombie would be a better term. So while I work on breaking that habit, I also end up working hard on finding copies for its 2 expansions. Yes, things couldn't get any worse....

Add that to a need to wrestle again....


On a side note, I'm finding people to make a trip to Batu Caves with me..hehehe. Looks like I'm not the only KLite that's been here yet not done that (visit and climbed batu Caves ridiculous amounts of steps). Hopefully that happens in a near future, like end of the month/beginning of next month. Otherwise like all my trip plans, they get suggested and then like most dreams, get forgotten.

Oh, while I'm at it, countdown now is 10 days and counting. :(

Monday, October 13, 2008

Not pulling my weight..

Pun unintended, I think..

I'm a little annoyed with myself that I'm not practicing enough for my piano lessons. Feels like I need a whip of sorts to get me to spend at least 30 minutes to an hour daily just playing on the keyboard making senseless tunes. Oh well, that's what happens when you start late...30 years late...zzz

On another note, 12 days and counting.....

Friday, October 10, 2008

A Day to remember,

a time to fear,
an hour of reckoning,
of wishes held dear.

A moment of joy,
peace and clarity.
A future that questions
" is there destiny"?

The past 72 hours has been, simply put, interesting. A see saw of events has put me in a position where I truly enjoyed what I have around me and realised so much more that being happy for now is more important that expecting to be happy in the future. I recently coined a life motto, "Expect Nothing, Hope for Everything" however certain events led to me scrapping it after a short while. But now I believe that it still holds in me.

And in 2 weeks I will know how much I've grown...

Friday, October 03, 2008

A routine kept...

a routine lost.

I managed a trip down to Singapore earlier this week. 2 days 1 night to be exact. Luckily for me I didn't have to pay for my transportation and lodging this time around as my boss decided that my input on location was worth the RM 1000 the trip would relatively cost. To explain how much I actually spent on my own (and even this I've been told to claim from the company), I brought around SGD 150, left over from my previous trip and returned with SGD 120. Ok, I didn't shop because I really couldn't tell if the things there were cheaper than Malaysia as I was very much thinking in terms of SGD instead of RM when I was there.

To illustrate, I spent SGD4 on a hot choclate and SGD3.50 for a sandwich for breakfast without flinching. This happened even before I was told to claim for all my meals not paid on corporate card (Yes, I have one that can only be used when I'm on business. I wished my company would require me to travel more....Muahahaha). Only after being told by a local that I have good taste (without realising at first the 'good' meant 'expensive and extravagent') I realised I spent almost RM 20 for breakfast!! You wouldn't see me spending that much for a sandwich and hot chocolate for Breakfast in Malaysia!

Now, what did I lose? Well, for those who've known me long enough and recall my older, older posts, I have this thing for Singapore's Burger King. I just think it's so much better than the local ones. MUCH BETTER. So much better that I have, without failure, always had at least 1 serve of the Whopper before returning to Malaysia. Unfortunately, this time around I was busy maximising opportunities to try new food. Procrastinating getting a Whopper until the very end. On the last meal of the trip, I stumbled upon a Brazillian restaurant (called Carnivore, which should have rang a bell). Since I couldn't find a French restaurant I thought I'd just try it. To my surprise they were serving set Buffet meal where they hawk their barbecued meat around and in the end, I had more meat that 1 meal than I had the entire month of September! (They served beef, pork, lamb, chicken and fish. Fish was poor eventhough they served Salmon). By the time I was done, which took me less than an hour, I was so full I couldnt' bring myself to buy a Whopper for later.

Hence, I now have broken my chain of always getting a BK Whopper each time I go to Singapore. As it has been recently, over the past few months, I've broken quite a number of my rules and chains, which, while some have been uneventful, others have brought a good change to my life. Maybe it's time to set new chains/rules? Hmmmm.

On a side note, someone I know recently started blogging (she started much longer ago, but back then I wasn't in the mood to 'layan', hehe). However, in her blog there was no opportunity to comment, so that somewhat loses it's appeal abit. But I must say, she does write well.....

Friday, September 26, 2008

Coming up next....

A haircut
Carwash
Everton VS Liverpool
Trip to Singapore
Hari Raya Aidilfitri


Trip to Singapore???

Yeah, I've finally managed to get to travel overseas because of work, though it's only a 2 day trip and on really tight budget ( I offered to take the coach). At least I still make it to Singapore once a year and I have SGD 140 to spend away. Though with my current eating habits, I'm not sure if I should visit Burger King....yum....uh Oh....

The other problem would be that my return will be on the eve of Hari Raya, which means I'm putting myself at high risk of being part of the statistic. Since I'm not driving, I can't be blamed since I'm not in control. So if it's time to go, it's time to go, no?

Anyway, still need alot of work on my 4th finger on my right hand. No strength at all...Practice practice practice......

Oh, dunno why I've been getting this insane drive to actually hang out this Friday Night. It's driving me nuts. Luckily for me, I have no one to go out with..hehehe..

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Of long trips to find food you can get next door (almost)..

Warning...Non-Halal post ahead....hehehe

Before that, a quick update on class last weekend. Still the same teacher who I have to speak in Cantonese with. But this time it was better an communication wasn't as tough. So maybe I should give it a go for 2 months. I paid for it anyway, hahaha. It's funny she asked me to get a songbook of sorts which was aptly titled, "Piano for Adult Beginners". It it, voila! It had June by Tchaikovsky (which looks harder than it sounds...:-( ) as well as Moonlight Sonata 1st movement (which, if I was only required to play with my right hand, I would have breeze through easily, haha!)

In between are loads of songs and compositions, which, IMHO, some are simplified. But then again, it's not like I can play the originals anyway. I can't even play the actual Traumerei....Sigh...


Ok, so last weekend an much delayed trip to Klang to find some authentic Klang Bakuteh finally materialised. For those unfamiliar, Bak Kut Teh is hokkein for Spare Ribs and Tea. The meat is pork by the way. Though I'm not exactly a fan of spare ribs (unless you debone them for me, haha!) the meal has evolved to include a host of other goodies like lean meat, fatty meat, mushrooms, etc. and above all it's yummy yummy soup. So having sampled quite a lot of this, I figured surely the one in Klang, where Bakuteh is famous for, should be better, if not best?

It's nice to know people in far away places anyway..hehe. Klang isn't exactly far like Mars far, or Australia far, but 60KM of driving on a highway is far enough for me. Anyway, so this colleague of mine brought me to this renown Klang place which is suppose to be THE ONE for Klang people. The ones I went before are relative knock-offs.

So after picking him up from his home (which, on another side, is a pretty nice place and quiet too...) we had to drive another 15 minutes or so and the place is called Pandamaran Town area (he keeps on repeating "Sin Chuan" in mandarin but me and mandarin just don't mix, hehe). Then after confirming which stall it was (yes, despite it being such a renown eatery, it's actually just a stall beside the main road.) we sat down and he ordered. FYI, do not go there without a hokkien speaker. They will treat you like a nobody. Then my colleague explained that the owner would insist that the soup has to be at the right mix before he'll serve, so everyone will actually wait, even if it is for an hour, for this guy to serve. Luckily for me, we arrived in time for the first serve so we didn't have to wait too long.

Oh, did I mention that for Bakuteh the main thing for me isn't the meat and tea but the soup?? Well, you're not getting much of that here. They don't even give a bowl of soup. The bowl where they serve the meat consist of about 5-6 spoonful of the soup and that's it. You can't even ask for more soup. When your order more rice, they'll give you about 2-3 spoonful of soup..That's it, folks...

It was nice, in terms of taste. But I wouldn't go there if I want to drink Bakuteh soup....

I would go there again, if I find the right company. Going there on my own? 120KM of driving to have food I've already tried? Don't think so.

Ok, that's all I have got to say about Bak Kut Teh. Now I need to find motivation to practice what I'm taught. Somehow paying for it only motivates me to turn up to classes, which is not enough...

By the way, anyone want to donate me a piano???? :D

Thursday, September 18, 2008

A jinx no more?

Interestingly, I sat through the entire Liverpool Man Utd match last weekend and it seems my jinx is over. Or is it?

I really wanted to leave the match actually, more so when in the 3rd minute, due to some non-existent defending from Javier Mascherano, Liverpool were a goal down. With me was Azmin and Andy and boy was Andy happy I stayed while Azmin was really wondering why I'm still around.

But somehow I watched on. Ok, I'll blame it on inertia. I do have a problem willing myself to do things when I'm not doing anything at all. So sitting down and having my eyes fixated on the TV was about as much I could do then.

But strangely enough, Edwin Van De Sar (the Man Utd keeper) decided to do what I've always hoped he'd do. Make a howler. From a deflected shot across his goalmouth, he decided to palm the ball onto an incoming Man Utd defender who could do nothing as the ball cannons off and rolled into the net. Liverpool 1 Man Utd 1. Things seem to be changing?

A long and ardous battle on the field later, Ryan Babel, who I couldn't understand why he didn't start, was substituted in. Before that, a Man Utd legend of sorts, as well as one of the few Man Utd players that I actually liked, was subbed in. He was Ryan Giggs. In his prime he was one of the most dangerous left wingers ever. On last weekend however, he wasn't exactly in his prime or playing all that well.

From a failed attempt to clear, Mascherano made something out of nothing of Gigg's insistent to let a ball run free, stole it, released it to Dirk Kuyt who happily passed it to an unmarked Babel and...!!!!

!!!!!GOAL!!!!!!

Liverpool 2 Man Utd 1!!!!!!

Everyone in the restaurant (bar silly Man Utd fans, ofcourse..:p) roared with approval (and for me, relief). That was in the 77th minute. The next 20 minutes or so was extremely anxious and I was actually telling myself that a draw would still be acceptable.

But in the end, the score stayed and Liverpool finally beat Man Utd after 9 meetings!!! Looks like we don't need Danny Murphy anymore!!!!
hahaha

That was fun, though I can't say so much about the rest of my weekend.
On a side note, last Saturday's piano class had a new teacher, who spoke to me in Mandarin!! Eventually she got the notion I don't understand mandarin (me not responding to her question would have made it obvious, no? :p) and she used cantonese instead. Maybe I should ask for an English speaking teacher. Otherwise I will have communication issues....:-(

We shall see.

Oh, bad piano habits that I have.

1) Play without proper tempo, usually too fast.
2) Keep raising my fingers away from the keyboard.
3) Tense posture.

Better start practicing!!!

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Run in on a crowded road...

Isn't exactly the nicest thing to happen in a jammed up road. I have to admit I wasn't the nicest driver yesterday and in no part faultless, but hey...

Anyway, I was at this jammed junction and I saw an opening on my right lane so I dived in. I got honked by the car behind, who decided he was having none of it and went parallel with me on my right. Now, me with a Viva (which is a small car) against his Wira, which is a crappy bigger car, as well as me having no mood to be nice, I just don't see how he can actually muscle his way. Yes, he's got the bigger car and in most circumstances, the bigger car wins. But in a jammed road, the small car thriumphs since I need much less room to make any manuevers.

At first we went head to head for several metres, eventually I overtook him and took the lane. He then proceeded to go to my left but still wanted to wrestle me out by overtaking me. Our side mirrors clashed and luckily for me my side mirror is retractable manually so a few hits just sends it out of position but does not dislodge it. I still kept the lane. Then he came at me from the left again, wound down his window and started to hit my side mirror again. Had a quick look and could see a rather angry driver shouting expletives. I decided to ignore him and he eventually overtook me from the left only to signal left again as he obviously needed to go onto the lanes on the left. There was a clear road up ahead so he was obviously just acting like a angry child..haha. Eventually I found enough room to overtake him and nid him adieu while he remains stuck at that part of the jam..:P

Funny thing was that it's fasting month and well....Which got me thinking. Since I have no religion, I cannot sin. Unlike him/other. Especially on this time of the year. Well, even if not at this time of the year, I cannot sin. I can however go against the law and feel bad thanks to my conscience.....So if anyone is on the road having a go at me, they're just wasting their time. And they've just lost a lot of brownie points with their gods..hahaha. Not that it matters really, since in most religion, repentance is more of a show than a mental decision. hmmph.

After I finally reached home I assessed that my car wasn't damaged except for the mirror, which was already damaged in the past anyway. No point keeping the car in tip top exterior since that would just make it a car dying to get scratched.

In conclusion, don't mess with me as I can do what most people without sinning, cannot do. Doesn't make me a better person, just one with less worries about my afterlife. :P

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

And the weekend went....

Ok...

Class was only for 30 minutes and the temp teacher (seems they've asssigned me a teacher but she no-show) taught me the ultimate basics in piano playing. Before I knew the 30 minutes was up.. Disappointed.

Now I just need to practice playing with both hands on my run-down el-cheapo keyboard.

Otherwise weekend was a miss mostly. Didn't do much of what I should be doing, mostly because I was, well, afflicted. haha.

Hopefully this weekend the real teacher shows up and I can get going on learning how to play properly.

Targets/Goals - Traumerei 1st. Moonlight 1st and 2nd. It'll probably take me eons before I can play the 3rd piece because it's just so so fast..

Another Target/goal - Find myself an affordable piano.

This is going to take awhile.....

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

Update!

Piano lessons starts this weekend!!!


Hope I don't take too long to get my fingers snappy!!!

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

Epiphany

Now, I'm not saying some extra-terrestial came to me and gave me a good hiding. Though I'm pretty sure that'll be what I get if indeed any one of them were to visit me. Yes, I haven't been a good boy. Why do you think I get no love during Christmas? (Because you don't celebrate it you dungu!) Oops.

So what did happen?

Well, in an effort to understand my chances as well as improve my odds in one of my recent pursuits of the fairer sex (Ok, I can't be in denial all the time, right? :p Though worry not, by the time I write this I'm back to being me..haha) I decided to speak to one long time friend and 'master of sweeping feets of the ground'. In our conversation he made light to me something that, in truth, is blatantly obvious. But you know how at times you just need to be told what you already know? It's an intricate and delicate timing and more often than not the timing is off. However, this time around the same old tune struck a very loud chord and voila! Eyes opened.

You see, a very obvious explanation to why I fail to attract any female of my liking is that I obviously go for the uncommon ones. However, despite my higher/different (I'd like to say lower, but then again, who am I kidding?) expectations, I have nothing to offer. How my friend put it; I am not good looking (to say I'm average looking would be a bonus but that doesn't help either), I am not rich nor aspire to be (and won't ever be, haha!), I am not intelligent to an extent it radiates around me (you know like how really smart people really smarten people kind of thing..), I'm not funny (Ok, as much as I disagree on this point, as I do believe I am, until I realise the only person laughing at my jokes are myself and my family. That basically means I AM NOT FUNNY..), I'm not good in bed (well, no one really knows that yet, but.....Well, no one will probably even know...haha!) and I have nothing exceptional/impressive to attract the uncommon types.

So in order words, I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH. While I don't feel as though I was stabbed a thousands times over when that dawn on me, it did hurt. In addition, my lack of any ambition basically means that neither of those traits above would be enhanced in the furthest of future.

Lastly, all the things I do now can only be enjoyed by myself. I have no activities that require another person to participate to make it fun.

With all the inputs to the formula the resulting end product is......I am doomed alone.

Oh well, that doesn't even surprises me or anyone else I'd think.

So..........You don't call it an epiphany unless you do something about it, or something good comes from it right? (Well.....There is that thing about me being in denial.....)

So, barring from blogspot deciding to get hit by viruses and losing all my post, including this one, let me state what I am going to do with myself.

1) I will lose weight
2) I will learn how to play the piano
3) I will finish writing the pieces in my head

I haven't got a plan yet, but I am getting details very soon (yeah right..) and hopefully I will have new stuff to write here. Kind of a checklist where myself and everyone that reads here get to keep track of how I'm doing.

Must not lose sight of the destination. Even if I chose to drift in the ocean, I shall drift to the sound of music.

Monday, August 25, 2008

An unexpected Gathering..

Last Saturday I met up with the guy who made the MMORPG that I play, WebDota at SS2. For those who didn't know, yeah, it turns out he's Malaysian (yes, he). Let's see if I can pan out what happened in little over 4 hours to a full fledge blog post.


Prologue:

Around 2 months ago over some forum thread at Webdota, another Malaysian player known as ninja (whom I have come to know watches RAW as well..hehe) sparked up a thought to invite the creator of WebDota (WD), formerly known as LoD (he's real name I shant reveal as it isn't all that relevant here anyway..) to Bak Kut Teh (those unfamiliar with this Malaysian Chinese (or maybe just Chinese) activity, it's basically Chinese Tea over a meal of rice and Stew Pork). Why or how escapes me now, but back then it was a thought, not much a decision. Fast forward a couple of weeks, LoD decides to announce that he intends to end the free playing game at a milestone round 50, (currently at Round 46), which will mean very soon I will be a very very bored employee during work hours (at least until I finally decide to actually spend all 7.5 hours DOING WORK at WORK...Maybe.....Maybe...)

My first thought were to ask him out to a drink and bombard him with all the intrusive and invasive questions as to why he wants to quit, as well as finding more on what he does to keep the game going at the moment ( I actually managed to ask alot that day, be the key intrusive personal questions were sparred as there were other people there which made me think the answer may not be as forthcoming as I'd hope). He countered with a gathering of sorts, allowing other Malaysian players in our area (that would be Klng Valley). At first I was skeptical, due to me being the ANAL PLANNER, a gathering has some measure of planning to it. He took it away and all I had to do was turned up (kind of, I did end up having to pick up 2 guys from a train station...). Before you know it a thread was created to get players to RSVP for the gathering.

Making the Gathering (hey, look. it's got the same initials as Magic: the Gathering...hahaha):

Unfortunately Bak Kut Teh is pork, and where I live if the gathering is to be open to people in my country, then it's just common courtesy and logic to pick a 'Halal' venue so as not to sideline our muslim associates. So the venue got changed to Murni in SS2 PJ. At first I didn't have a clue where it was, but knowing that it's SS2 meant I was pretty sure I could find the restaurant irregardless as I'm very familiar with SS2; It's a big square block of shoplots with many eateries and cybercafes...How could I not find the place?

As LoD decided to pick up the tab, the decision was to limit it to 8 persons (he went on to advise it was a gimmick to actually get people to commit, as anopen invitation will take forever as oppose to a 'VIP' availability, but I'm to cost conscious to see it that way, haha!) and the thread was soon balooned with post of people who wanted to go, wanted to go but can't, did not want to go but wanted to spam and just plain spammers (actually spamming could apply to any of the previous categories of people too). The good thing was with a deadline in place, there's only so much spamming to happen before finalising the VIP list (oh yeah, people still spammed the thread AFTER the thread's purpose was done. Go figure...)

By the deadline only 7 confirmed. Myself, LoD, Ninja (the other guy, hehe) and 4 others RSVP (Gabrial aka Gaybrial (I call him Gabby in writing..haha), Zeifer, BumbleStreak and Karb. The date of the gathering was now set to 23rd August 2008 at 6.30pm. Another side topic, some of the WD gamers in Indonesia has started a gathering thread for more than a year, I think, but has not really managed to make it reality. So I was driven to drive a wedge to their 'efforts' by making the Malaysia gathering happen in a shorter time. In fact, just making it happen was a big plus. Oh, because of that, I needed photo evidence. So I tried to get some of the other attendees to bring cameras (me and my dislike to be photographed made it hypocritical for me to bring a camera). Since I had some 'ferrying' duties, I figured it would make sense to get someone else to bring cameras. Besides, I was trying very hard not to 'PLAN' the gathering.

On that day, 23rd August 2008.....:

I was to pick up Ninja and Gabrial at Asia Jaya LRT Station at 6pm. I arrived slightly after 6 with Shrek (that's my car, haha!). Gabrial was already waiting there, while Ninja was still, well, practicing ninjutsu? (as in not around, unseen, late...) After some not so comfortable introductions, I realise that Gabrial was rather green (hey, matching colours!!) with regards to the city since he's just here to study. Wish I got to go far far away to study..:-( ..Oh well, did I mention we waited.....And waited....And waited.....For a cool (yes, it was quite cold that evening too...) 30 minutes. We couldn't reach his phone and he wasn't replying our SMSes, so i left without him. A short drive after we were in SS2 and my phone rang.

Zeifer, who was getting there on his own, needed some directions on how to get to the place. From me! Hahaha, had they had all known I was going there with a lose image of where I think the place it, they might have decided against asking for my directions. I gave him what I could in terms of how to get closer to our venue and bid him good luck. I needed it too. Missing a turn, I had to go a circle around one part of SS2 just to get back on the same road as the venue. My phone rang again. This time it was LoD asking if I was there yet. I hate being late, but it wasn't really my fault! :-( I told him I just parked and would see him at the venue.

Upon reaching there I saw this geeky guy who didn't quite look like LoD (he posted a picture on the forum) but wasn't sure, so I called him again. he picked up the phone. I scoured the area and no other Chinese guy was picking up a call. Where on earth was he??? " I'm waiting inside the car"......Duh...And so there were 3 of us. Shortly later Zeifer found his way after speaking to me again (this time I was already there, so my directions would have been better, me thinks) and the gathering was 4. Yes, 4. Out of a possible 8 which 7 RSVPed, only 4 actually turned up.

Ninja had an unfortunate accident of switching off his mobile phone completely and not remembering his pin. So instead of spending time with us he ended up spending time at a mobile phone shop. When I finally saw his SMS and called him about it, I couldn't but help laugh at the unfortunate event. I'm not sure if he realises I laugh at these things, not because I intend to demean but they're just humourous, are they not? These random coincidences?

Bumblestreak turned out to be a minor and was not allowed to go by his mom. This was school holidays and he explains he's been going out so much the mom wanted him at home. Too bad, so sad...hahahah. (Whoever says I'm not evil just DOES NOT KNOW ME!!)

Karb? Who? Well, no offence, but this was the guy who posted least and hardly made an impression he really wanted to turn up. To me anyway..

So 4 guys and a mamak store. What do you think happened? Some random facts:
1) We were all in glasses (contacts people, contacts...zzz)
2) 3 Chinese 1 Malay (All Malaysian, so huat???)
3) 30, 25, 22, 20. Go figure what those figures are. No, it wasn't the body measurements of some hot chick there, since I don't think those numbers describe much of a hotchick. Try harder...)
4) The conversations were mostly in English (poor Gabrial. Name of an Angel but had to speak in a somewhat foreign tongue...:p)

Gabrial's foreign nature were telling as he couldn't decide what to order in a Mamak!!! Feels like I'm having one of my foreign country guest. hahaha. Though I'm sure in time he will get accustomed to this Malaysian culture...Everyone else was rather comfortable. Gabrial and Zeifer ordered Roti Hawaii (per Gabrial had beef, pineapples and some other stuff I can't recall) while LoD had Clyapot "Lou Shee Fun" (some kind of short, fat semi-transparent noodles). By the speed LoD ate it, either he really eats slowly or it didn't come out very good. I'm still under oversight of my dietician, so most, if not all the food there were off-limits. I ended up with 2 Teh Tariks and 1 Mango juice/punch/something....

We started of with some customary introductions (hmm, wait, I don't recall introducing myself and what I do..hehe, I must have talked too much about myself then so much so they didn't need to ask about me...:p) and I asked LoD about the cost to maintain the game. I also asked about the things he needed to do to keep the game going, stopping short at the technical bits as I knew nothing of those sorts. Then most of our conversations were on the game and the gamers.

Before we knew it was 9.30pm. A short photo session later (Must have for photo evidence!!) we went our seperate ways and maybe we'd gather again in the future..Maybe.. You know these thing....All talk......hehehehehe..I dropped off Gabrial at the same station and realised I couldn't find anyone to watch BPL with. So I went home.


Epilogue:

The pictures have since been posted. The verdict's out....Someone commented I didn't look as 'big' as I say I am..Well......hehehehe..Not to say I don't like that...hehehe..

It was a good meet up and hopefully there's more. It's funny how internet acquaintences aren't as different normal acquaintences......

It's also nice to have a story to tell compared to my recent posts here....hahah

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

For those concerned...

Never fear...I'm not the title of my blog for no reason..:P

But yes, pain is the order of the day.


Excerp from a song I like:

Sparkling grey, through my own veins....

Anymore than a whisper, any sudden movement of my heart.....

And I know, I Know I have to watch them pass away.......

Just get through this day....


**************************

Must get through this day.......

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

In a moment of depression

What better thing to do than to sing myself to death?

I holed up in my room, put on the music and found out I could still remember close to all of the lyrics of the following:

Going Under
Bring Me to Life
Everybody's Fool
My Immortal
Tourniquet
Imaginary
Taking Over Me
Hello
My Last Breath
Whisper
Sweet Sacrifice
Call Me When You're Sober
Lithium
Snow White Queen
Lacrymosa
Good Enough
Breathe No More
Last Song I'm Wasting on You

Need more work remembering:
Like You
Further Away
Missing

I also know now how straining it is to the vocal chords to sing all of them in one go. Salute to all the performers in concert (those that aren't lip syncing).

A lot of water helps.